you know what, i dont think i ever knew you..

i am glad i have seen things in a clearer light..haha..though it hurts, i will just move on..

i think i have other things and other stuff to worry about...

the week is finally over! mann! its a wonder i made it through...

today was kinda bad..and i was feeling so betrayed and discouraged when Sashi shared abt the Psalm 23. wow...the fact that David had such a confidence in the Lord even when he was going to be defeated..even when he felt like giving up...

and this wk, i definitely felt like giving up- on the situation arnd me, the people i love and cherish, my studies and even on myself..

but its like God is telling me to hold on and although its so tough and i feel that nobody is on my side, I will listen to Him.

ok! Yvonne is having a really tough time adjusting to sch...

its so difficult, without my cliqque and the pressure...bla bla..mann! its really really challenging!

the only comfort is that everyones going thru the same thing..

things can never be the same again can they?

haha

today, we went shopping for the dance costume at tekka.and seriously someone pissed me off to the max! so Yvonne lost her patience and became really subdued..

haha, yep..thats my new way of being angry-shutting up and being indifferent abt stuff...

haha..so anyway, we cldnt tailor our costumes coz of our budget and so we gotta make do...hehheh.haiz..watever..just gonna dance and forget it.

amma and appa came to pick me up...thank gdnes for them..my legs were dying and after i sat down my body was aching all over that i cldnt get up...feel like some old woman..hahah

gotta get back to work...yep..sch is a harder taskmaster than i thought..

God help me...i am telling you if i get out of this in one piece, you're gonna see a whole different Yvonne.

BACK TO SCHOOL TOMORROW!

ok...it will be an understatement if i say i am nervous..haha..i am SUPER NERVOUS! i have no idea why..LOL

yeah..and its such a wonder that things can change so much in the span of a year...gonna misss my babes so so much! i will never forget the friendship they offered me...

hmmm...today 5pm service's message was really good..haha...yeah..but other stuff spoilt my mood..as usuall..

sometimes i really wish i was dumb, coz my mouth gets me into trouble..i dont mean anything bad and i actually am saying the right thing, but i still get the shit..and i am SO SO SO sick and tired of it..

and theres this someone who made her dislike for me very apparent today..i dun rmb doing anything to her coz i dun even talk to her much to have the opportunity to offend her...so wahats ur prob?

and just because someone dusnt like me or i cant get along with someoen, that definitely dunst give me the right to totally ignore the good in that person and jusdge the person rite? mann! sometimes although u do the right stuff, u get bombarded more! aahh..watever!

so to all JC2 students! wish u all the best for the year..its gonna be fast and tough but lets rely on God's strength k..haha

Lamentations 3v22-24:

God's loyal love couldn't have run out, his merciful love couldn't have dried up.

They're created new every morning.

How great your faithfulness!

I'm sticking with God (I say it over and over).

He's all I've got left.

haha..this is all i have to say..