today started with j1s meet j2s session...s10 and s11 combined to meet og11..and we were totally bombarded with so much food..haha..crazy..i felt like a pig though i wasnt eating muvh..haha...and at one time, i wld have to pass 3-4 items of food in the opposite direction..haha..

after that was chem lecture which had a fun end coz the teacher showed us how the denaturation of protein structure leads to real life stuff...bla bla..so he made unbaked meringues and a chicken liver turn gross..hhaha..

after that was principal meet christians session so i went to help, and i think it was a good turnout frm the j1 cohort..

life concert is coming up and i want to sing in it! so i gtg for auditions next week..hope i get thru it!

parents picked me up after sch and i went popular at bras basah to get the pencilcase i wanted...asked the lady and she said dun have..was damn disappointed...went looking arnd for other stuff when amma suddenly shouted my name and waved something at me..

so i went to see and she had found what i wanted!haha..and she was like' this is what u went searching for? nothing great wat..haha'

but i was really happy! and had it not been for my mother, i wldnt have found that thing...

its such a small thing but my mother has always emphasized the importance oof persistence and going all out for something..its not enough t want something..the effort has to be put in to attain that goal..and this is something i have yet to learn..

came home and when i was eating, i got a calll...

i was supposed to be at practice in church for tmrw's singing! and it totally slipped my mind!

haha...and u know wat i did..i panicked..lol..seriously, went totally nuts. it was a genuine unintentional mistake but it really made me feel SO SO SO bad..and it still does..

and i realised something..i am so afraid of making mistakes, of turning pple off, too concerned abt what others think of me..haha..looks i got ALOT to deal with...haha...

ok! i have alot to blog abt! aha...hope i dun miss out stuff...but i think i will..

monday was when i realised that te sch canteen is really small..mann! with the influx of all the j1s, it was like packed! and i didnt bother abt queuing for food la..haha..ok so this year j1s are kinda nerdy..LOL...but i think rite, that will change very vvery soon..yep..since its SAJC! hhaha...

and that night, decided to call ayidah to ask her how her day was..and our conversation stretched partly because i didnt understand wat she was saying with her retainers and all..haha..i had to ask her to spell stufff...LOL...and i was sharing how i feel so low sumtimes..and i was glad that she reminded me that although i dun get stuff that i deserve, God always sees everything tat I do..

and then I guess i realised what it means to rely on God's strenght..

haha..

expected: do good stuff and expect something in return

exceptional: do everything for God so that I wont be concerned whether pple recgonise it or not:)

tuesday was ok...cant rmmb wat happened...oh ya! chem remedial! haha..sat with the 'indian gang'-my frens frm s09 and s10..and i and mai ended up chatting..LOL...oopsy..

haha..and i was telling her that it was freaky that we were so smilar in character..and she said she was telling that to sumone else too..why are we similar? mann..see us together, u will know why..

we get angry the same way, laugh alot and at each other, can complete each others' sentences...and we have like telephatic thinking..haha..but we have differences also la..if not how will we able to get along together? ahah...

today:

didnt do pe coz i had a cold...so i took timing for my class, 1.6km..yep.and i think s11 ran quite well! :)..then i was watching 2 classes play when i and vivian(didnt take pe also) realised that our class was playing angst s04. so we immediately went there to cheer my class on...hhaa..and i cldnt shut up la..had to cheer every single person that got the ball..LOL..but was it just mere coincidence that they started scoring after i was there? ahaah...encouragement works, u knwo..haha..but i think one of the guys in the class was mimicking me..err..watever..haha..not disturbed..haha...

then during moral ed, mrs tan gave us back our stock taking lists-and my goals for this year were to lose weight(as usual), do really well and be more faithful in my daily devotion..and so mrs tan wrote comments for everyone at the bottom of the paper and this is exactly wat she wrote for me..:

'Yes, you are my GP Rep. So you must work harder. Ok? You can be beautiful inside and those who are discerning will see it.'

that is SO SWEET!!!!! MRS TAN, U TOTALLY MADE MY DAY! :)))))))

todays 'ics meeting' was hilarious la..laughing at the j1s, at the way mr raja was trying to catcht them...haha...and then he wanted to drink tea, so he bought me one as well to accompany him coz nobody else drinks tea..

so we went home after that, and nish took 142 with me to toa payh..it was nice coz i got to talk to her after a long time..i mean abt our pri sch and all that..haha..cant beleive that i, suria and nishanthi are frm the same primary and secondary school and now jc!

haha..yepyep...

today, i fianlly decided to go popular to buy the cute boxy pencilcase i saw clarisa have..and i searched and searched but cldnt find..so i asked someone there and she said it had finished and that there was alot even yesterday..damn! my heart sank right to my toes la! u know, that feeling like as if u are so jinxed that u just missed sumthing u really want..haha..lame rite...but i really wanted tat thing..haiya..cant be helped i guess..:(