Life.....as we see it

actually, i dun feel like blogging..

just really really tired..haha...and worried abt promos..yeap

but theres singing auditions tmrw and wonderful mua hasnt practised one bit..GREAT!

hmm...but aniways, today we almost met with an acccident..haha..crossing that small road on the way to sch..and a woman who was speeding in a sch zone almost knocked into us....thank God she stopped in time.

after that, we forget abt the incident, but the woman get sout of the car to scold us saying how we as jc students ashd set an example for the others..hmm....

example in wat la? huh? CROSSING ROADS?

i laughed..but i was REALLY angry cuz i dunno know the woman and i didnt think she had a right to scold us..yea..i dun owe her a living and neither dus she owe me one..i mean no offence..but, she was also in the wrong..

after wen we walked i was just ranting cuz i was really really pissed...hahha...actually more thatn ranting..lol...

but after sch, on the way home, i just thot how i cld have died this morning..i mean its highly possible rite..haah..

and i felt bad abt how i reacted..coz if she didnt see and stop in time, i dunno where i wld be now..yea..and I thanked God for keeping me alive and well..

i mean in the very least, i may have gotten injusred..and how will i be able to do my exams next wk then?..hmmm

yeaps, so this is to the woman:
i am sorry we crossed the road like that..we were waiting for very long for pple to give us way, but everybody refused to..yea, so we happened to cross in front of ur car becoz we didnt see u cuming...
but i dun think thats a very nice way to put across ur point..because like u said we are jc students and we do deserve some form of respect..its not like we acted like that intentionally...
and U SHDNT BE SPEEDING IN A SCH ZONE! dumdum

u know wen we go thru the slightest problem, we tend to flippantly say that we wanna die?

but, wat if we really did? i mean has the value of life become that low?

we so often go without appreciating the fact that we are alive and wake up to spend another day with our family, frens, annoying teachers, supposed enemies in sch, etc.
but there have been SO MANY who havent had this priviledge..and wen its that way, shdnt we regard the life we have as a gift frm God?

and shdnt we concentrate on living it out the best way that honours and pleases God?

haha..even I as a Christian, often forget that our lives are not ours...

but its not.. and as long as we think that our life is ours and live it with that concept, life is not gonna be nice..ya, u may gain material wealth, popularity..bla bla..but will ther be a TRUE MEANING AND PURPOSE to ur life?

i thank God, coz i know my purpose:to honour Him with everything I do...

WOOHOO! ahhaah....so, i shdnt worry..haha..because my life isnt mine to worry abt!

hmm...conclusions for today:

1)self-reflection helps lots
2) pineapple is kinda sick..haha
3) the peach has got to learn to becum less angry and annoyed

:)

gosh...ultimate exhaustion...

hmm..haa.. today was excitng ..lol...

sumone sat near us today during lunch break and i was trying my best to act normal...hahah....i repeat -TRYING..

haha...and that person is super concerned abt promos..haha..i never thot..judging frm that persons cool demeanour..haha....yes yes..i am FLOORED!

hahah...and sumbody found abt that sweet muffin...haha..i was shocked and quite scared..but i trust the person knows how to hold his tongue..yeah..haha

okok..besides that, we had an ultimate overload of Biology today...Gosh! It takes alot of effort to actually concentrate u know..i found myself drifting ever so often...

hmm....i feel ugly...haha...TOO MANY pimples have been popping out and i look worse than i usually do..haha...really..i think even if i dun think i am stressed my body begs to differ...

certain symptoms i have been experiencing of late:-
1) sleepless nights...kinda becuming nocturnal..
2) terrible pimple breakouts
3) eyes are feeling misplaced all the time..like i feel cock-eyed..haha...
4) stomachs feeling bloated even without eating-prob air..and my stomach never reacts like that usually...

hahah...yehs...God knows wats happening..but life has to go on rite?
So i shall just bear with my ugly self for this promtional period and press on..haha..thank God He dusnt care if i look ugly..haha

urgh! and this blogskin is boring me...its dull(my personal opinion)..and dusnt reflect me..haha...i wanna change it..but everytime sum problem arises..:(

anyways, i think caffeine makes me high..coz on Monday i was doing the STUPIDEST things in MACS with Amirah and Vyshooo..haha...seriously..gosh..i feel SO embarassed...i dun think anyone cld have thot i was THIS nuts.yeah...dancing to evry tune we hear..thinking of waving at total strangers..shaking my head incessantly...this is called ultimate INSANITY!

hahah....its ok...its therapeutic..if not i will just snap at my parents wen i get home... yups..so everyone, be prepared..there aint no Yvonne with no insanity...hahah

yeaps..so looking forward to post exam period and prettier days..ahah

gosh...ultimate exhaustion...

hmm..haa.. today was excitng ..lol...

sumone sat near us today during lunch break and i was trying my best to act normal...hahah....i repeat -TRYING..

haha...and that person is super concerned abt promos..haha..i never thot..judging frm that persons cool demeanour..haha....yes yes..i am FLOORED!

hahah...and sumbody found abt that sweet muffin...haha..i was shocked and quite scared..but i trust the person knows how to hold his tongue..yeah..haha

okok..besides that, we had an ultimate overload of Biology today...Gosh! It takes alot of effort to actually concentrate u know..i found myself drifting ever so often...

hmm....i feel ugly...haha...TOO MANY pimples have been popping out and i look worse than i usually do..haha...really..i think even if i dun think i am stressed my body begs to differ...

certain symptoms i have been experiencing of late:-
1) sleepless nights...kinda becuming nocturnal..
2) terrible pimple breakouts
3) eyes are feeling misplaced all the time..like i feel cock-eyed..haha...
4) stomachs feeling bloated even without eating-prob air..and my stomach never reacts like that usually...

hahah...yehs...God knows wats happening..but life has to go on rite?
So i shall just bear with my ugly self for this promtional period and press on..haha..thank God He dusnt care if i look ugly..haha

urgh! and this blogskin is boring me...its dull(my personal opinion)..and dusnt reflect me..haha...i wanna change it..but everytime sum problem arises..:(

anyways, i think caffeine makes me high..coz on Monday i was doing the STUPIDEST things in MACS with Amirah and Vyshooo..haha...seriously..gosh..i feel SO embarassed...i dun think anyone cld have thot i was THIS nuts.yeah...dancing to evry tune we hear..thinking of waving at total strangers..shaking my head incessantly...this is called ultimate INSANITY!

hahah....its ok...its therapeutic..if not i will just snap at my parents wen i get home... yups..so everyone, be prepared..there aint no Yvonne with no insanity...hahah

yeaps..so looking forward to post exam period and prettier days..ahah

snoopy!

hmm...i did sum snooping..

and came up with sum conclusions abt mine...hahha....not to my favour of course..

but its ok...theres more to life..:) ...

its only the start, not the end...

no point being emo..hhaa.i DO NOT SUIT EMO...HAHAH..
there are no emo peaches arnd u know..hahaha

i wanna be forever rosy..haha...and its up to me! how i look on the life God has given me...

i wld say the video i saw changed my life on fri...
that guy was SO confident and clear-headed! and i can complain so much..

wat a spirit..i mean he head all the reason to feel unfairly treated and annoyed and miserable...
but gdness, i really really admire him..and i told God i wanna see him in heaven and tell him how much he's inspired me:)

yes..thers more to life than just me...and i think thats the secret to life of joy:)

the fear will disappear...

hmmmm.....

i think i am an open book..

i mean lately everyones been talking abt how they dun reveal stuff...and i kinda think i aint like that..

i dunno la...but maybe its becoz i am really frank..haha..

and i trust pple too easily...and i tell stuff..but later i realise they arent wat they appear as..but its too late..and so i constantly suffer frm this insecurity that i will be betrayed...

and...my hearts been broken lots....haha....but i guess i am a rebounding peach..Thank God! hahaha....its difficult but life has to go on rite?

but now i am struggling..i wanna stop things that may happen...i dun wanna repeat mistakes and get hurt all over again..

sumthing i gave up on...but now theres a glimmer of possibility..but i am just SO scared to hope!
my heart tells me one thing but my brain another..

my brain tells me it aint possible....

haha...time will tell of course....but i am afraid that i will get carried away and get hurt...

nvm..God will help me..as long as i dun do anything stupid..ahaha...

Friday carecell was great!

I mean usually suffer frm panic attacks..+ i had to worship lead...but it was different..i wasnt nervous and i sorta genuinely left it to God promising to just do my best..haha..i got a 'Good job Yvonne'

and i think everyone understood the lesson well...yups..they were quite receptive..and we all had our share of fun and food..yeah..or rather they ate the food..lol...
and its so much easier coz theres pple to support u..m y grp members thanked me...and it was extremely encouraging!!!! i love you groupie!!!!(as zq calls it)
hahahaha.....

yups..so i slacked my weekend away..feel guilty..but i think i needed it..yups...hahaha
my frens, pls dun make me feel guilty k..haha...

:)