the fear will disappear...

hmmmm.....

i think i am an open book..

i mean lately everyones been talking abt how they dun reveal stuff...and i kinda think i aint like that..

i dunno la...but maybe its becoz i am really frank..haha..

and i trust pple too easily...and i tell stuff..but later i realise they arent wat they appear as..but its too late..and so i constantly suffer frm this insecurity that i will be betrayed...

and...my hearts been broken lots....haha....but i guess i am a rebounding peach..Thank God! hahaha....its difficult but life has to go on rite?

but now i am struggling..i wanna stop things that may happen...i dun wanna repeat mistakes and get hurt all over again..

sumthing i gave up on...but now theres a glimmer of possibility..but i am just SO scared to hope!
my heart tells me one thing but my brain another..

my brain tells me it aint possible....

haha...time will tell of course....but i am afraid that i will get carried away and get hurt...

nvm..God will help me..as long as i dun do anything stupid..ahaha...

Friday carecell was great!

I mean usually suffer frm panic attacks..+ i had to worship lead...but it was different..i wasnt nervous and i sorta genuinely left it to God promising to just do my best..haha..i got a 'Good job Yvonne'

and i think everyone understood the lesson well...yups..they were quite receptive..and we all had our share of fun and food..yeah..or rather they ate the food..lol...
and its so much easier coz theres pple to support u..m y grp members thanked me...and it was extremely encouraging!!!! i love you groupie!!!!(as zq calls it)
hahahaha.....

yups..so i slacked my weekend away..feel guilty..but i think i needed it..yups...hahaha
my frens, pls dun make me feel guilty k..haha...

:)