JUST TO AMUSE MYSELF....

Pick your birth month→ Strike out anything that doesn’t apply to you→ Bold the five-ten that best apply to you→ Copy to your blog→ Tag 10 people from your friends list

MY BIRTHDAY'S IN OCTOBER!!!!!HEHE...AND I JUST GONNA BOLD WHATEVER THAT I CAN IDENTIFY OBVIOUSLY IN MYSELF...I SHALL ITALIC STUFF THAT DUNST APPLY TO ME...

JANUARY: Stubborn and hard-hearted. Ambitious and serious. Loves to teach and be taught. Always looking at people’s flaws and weaknesses. Likes to criticize. Hardworking and productive. Smart, neat and organized. Sensitive and has deep thoughts. Knows how to make others happy. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Rather reserved. Highly attentive. Resistant to illnesses but prone to colds. Romantic but has difficulties expressing love. Loves children. Loyal. Has great social abilities yet easily jealous. Very stubborn and money cautious.

FEBRUARY: Abstract thoughts. Loves reality and abstract. Intelligent and clever. Changing personality. Attractive. Sexy. Temperamental. Quiet, shy and humble. Honest and loyal. Determined to reach goals. Loves freedom. Rebellious when restricted. Loves aggressiveness. Too sensitive and easily hurt. Gets angry really easily but does not show it. Dislikes unnecessary things. Loves making friends but rarely shows it. Daring and stubborn. Ambitious. Realizes dreams and hopes. Sharp. Loves entertainment and leisure. Romantic on the inside not outside. Superstitious and ludicrous. Spendthrift. Tries to learn to show emotions.

MARCH: Attractive personality. Sexy. Affectionate. Shy and reserved. Secretive. Naturally honest, generous and sympathetic. Loves peace and serenity. Sensitive to others. Loves to serve others. Easily angered. Trustworthy. Appreciative and returns kindness. Observant and assesses others. Revengeful. Loves to dream and fantasize. Loves traveling. Loves attention. Hasty decisions in choosing partners. Loves home decors. Musically talented. Loves special things. Moody.

APRIL: Active and dynamic. Decisive and hasty but tends to regret. Attractive and affectionate to oneself. Strong mentality. Loves attention. Diplomatic. Consoling, friendly and solves people’s problems. Brave and fearless. Adventurous. Loving and caring. Suave and generous. Emotional. Aggressive. Hasty. Good memory. Moving. Motivates oneself and others. Sickness usually of the head and chestSexy in a way that only their lover can see.

MAY: Stubborn and hard-hearted. Strong-willed and highly motivated. Sharp thoughts. Easily angered. Attracts others and loves attention. Deep feelings. Beautiful physically and mentally. Firm Standpoint. Needs no motivation. Easily consoled. Systematic. Loves to dream. Strong clairvoyance. Understanding. Sickness usually in the ear and neck. Good imagination. Good physical. Weak breathing. Loves literature and the arts. Loves traveling. Dislike being at home. Restless. Not having many children. Hardworking. High spirited. Spendthrift.

JUNE: Thinks far with vision. Easily influenced by kindness. Polite and soft-spoken. Having ideas. Sensitive. Active mind. Hesitating, tends to delay. Choosy and always wants the best. Temperamental. Funny and humorous. Loves to joke. Good debating skills. Talkative. Daydreamer. Friendly. Knows how to make friends. Able to show character. Easily hurt. Prone to getting colds. Loves to dress up. Easily bored. Fussy. Seldom shows emotions. Takes time to recover when hurt. Brand conscious. Executive. Stubborn.

JULY: Fun to be with. Secretive. Difficult to fathom and to be understood.Quiet unless excited or tensed. Takes pride in oneself. Has reputation. Easily consoled. Honest. Concerned about people’s feelings. Tactful. Friendly. Approachable. Emotional temperamental and unpredictable. Moody and easily hurt. Witty and sparkly. Not revengeful. Forgiving but never forgets. Dislikes nonsensical and unnecessary things. Guides others physically and mentally. Sensitive and forms impressions carefully. Caring and loving. Treats others equally. Strong sense of sympathy. Wary and sharp. Judges people through observations. Hardworking. No difficulties in studying. Loves to be alone. Always broods about the past and the old friends. Likes to be quiet. Homely person. Waits for friends. Never looks for friends. Not aggressive unless provoked. Prone to having stomach and dieting problems. Loves to be loved. Easily hurt but takes long to recover.

AUGUST: Loves to joke. Attractive. Suave and caring. Brave and fearless. Firm and has leadership qualities. Knows how to console others. Too generous and egoistic. Takes high pride in oneself. Thirsty for praises. Extraordinary spirit. Easily angered. Angry when provoked. Easily jealous. Observant. Careful and cautious. Thinks quickly. Independent thoughts. Loves to lead and to be led. Loves to dream. Talented in the arts, music and defense. Sensitive but not petty. Poor resistance against illnesses. Learns to relax. Hasty and trusty. Romantic. Loving and caring. Loves to make friends.

SEPTEMBER: Suave and compromising. Careful, cautious and organized. Likes to point out people’s mistakes. Likes to criticize. Stubborn. Quiet but able to talk well. Calm and cool. Kind and sympathetic. Concerned and detailed. Loyal but not always honest. Does work well. Very confident. Sensitive. Good memory. Clever and knowledgeable. Loves to look for information. Must control oneself when criticizing. Able to motivate oneself. Understanding. Fun to be around. Secretive. Loves leisure and traveling. Hardly shows emotions. Tends to bottle up feelings. Very choosy, especially in relationships. Systematic.

OCTOBER: Loves to chat. Loves those who love them. Loves to take things at the center. Inner and physical beauty. Lies but doesn’t pretend. Gets angry often. Treats friends importantly. Always making friends. Easily hurt but recovers easily. Daydreamer. Opinionated. Does not care of what others think. Emotional. Decisive. Strong clairvoyance. Loves to travel, the arts and literature. Touchy and easily jealous. Concerned. Loves outdoors. Just and fail. Spendthrift. Easily influenced. Easily loses confidence. Loves children.

DECEMBER: Loyal and generous. Sexy. Patriotic. Active in games and interactions. Impatient and hasty. Ambitious. Influential in organizations. Fun to be with. Loves to socialize. Loves praises. Loves attention. Loves to be loved. Honest and trustworthy. Not pretending. Short tempered. Changing personality. Not egotistic. Take high pride in oneself. Hates restrictions. Loves to joke. Good sense of humor. Logical.

God knows wat He's doing...

haha....thank you clarisa for ur lovely present! and more than anything it was the message in the card that touched my heart..:)))

haha..so anyways, things havent been that fantastic..haha..just seems to be getting worse..but in the midst of it, I thank God for giving me the strength to praise Him..

God deserves our praise :-
whether things are good or bad
even if we don't have the mood to
even when it seems like He's not there

yup..thats sumthing I realized....we shd praise God because HE IS GOD! haha..and I'm glad i did it..coz the moment I did, an undescribable peace came into my heart:)

I guess I am learning how to trust in God again..slow baby steps...i no longer want to take things in my own hand and think I can handle stuff on my own.... its really tiring and in the end, it only makes things worse...

and I know whatever God has for me in the future, its for the best..sometimes, we don't listen when God speaks to us through parents, Godly friends or others...so, God will teach us the hard way..its all up to us actually...

I think I am one of those stubborn egoistic ones who don't listen...and although the process that teaches me is painful, it is for my own good..hopefully, I will be able to skip the painful bit in the future by just listening... :))hehe....HOPEFULLY

for the concerned pple, just want to let u know i got enough points to be promoted..but its othing to celebrate much abt...

since SOME PERSON spoilt it by nagging the moment i told her because i barely passed...

and so i cried

i cried so much my head hurts now...

and i cried for the 3 of you(you know who you are)...becoz i will miss u guys like crazy...
ad i also cried for my other frnes who are also hanging by the thread...
its amazing howone exam can change ur life...*sighs*

but i am still praying that God will do a miracle..

you 3 were nice enough to be my frens when i was alone and its thru u guys, the rest of my class got to know me..and so i am gonna pray very hard

and now i feel emo..i was 'ordered' to clear my table..i obviously aint in the mood to do anything but as if anybody cares abt how i feel.......

but more thatn all that sadness i just wanna thank God so much for pulling me through...yep, i wld have been dead if He didnt help me...

so for all students out there who are being retained, or dunno if they are, let me tell u i will be praying and that watever u do in the future, always give ur best for God even when it comes to academics....

two words:ultimate exhaustion....

i was so so so tired that i was sleeping in the car! haha...and fell asleep in sch too....

anyways, today ayidah admitted what she had done..haha..it makes no difference anyway..

and I had to call and talk to someone I haven't to for a long time..and I cried..haha..in the canteen...but I've become so good at it nobody realised..haha

i missed them..and they were really good to me..but i didnt like the way they treated the ones i loved..so i distanced myself..

so anyways, i will be knowing my results tmrw..was telling that i will cry despite watever y results..too worried alrdy...but I trust God and I believe He will bring me thru watever it is..

so i am reading the lesson for this ekids sunday, when i see this portion in the shepherds path...


Trust is a basic human need. We need to know that we can trust others, and others need to
know they can trust us. Why is this so? Because God made us relational beings. When we trust
another, there is a sense of security in the relationship that God intended to mirror the security
we can have with him when we trust him. We can exchange our ideas, emotions, concerns,
thoughts, issues, and opinions without undue fear of rejection. Without trust, we are cautious in
relating, if we relate at all, because we are uncertain and fearful of being rejected or hurt. It hurts
to be deceived; it hurts our heart and damages relationships. God wants us to live with integrity
so when we testify to his love and forgiveness, our message is received as trustworthy – worthy
of consideration. Our integrity reflects his character.

O....K.. that is EXACTLY wat I've been thinking abt....gosh, God speakes to you in the most surprising ways...

and I've had issues abt trusting pple nowadays...but this speaks abt dealing wit that..Oh God, thank you so much..hahha

hmm..lets hope i will be this happy tmrw with gd news...

I wait for the Lord, my soul waits,
and in His word I put my hope.
Psalm 130v5.

hmm...today was Amma's bday!

yep, it went well:)

but there was a funny episode today..yest, after editing the written report for pw, i saved it as a draft in my email coz Mrs Tan had my thumbdrive

clever e didnt send it to my mail..so wen i tried to open it in sch today, i cldnt..so hoxy asked me to call my mum and send to me..well the joke is my mum isnt that computer-savvy and she didnt know how to attach a file to send..

so i was teaching my mum how to sent the attachment over the phone in the library!!!!! haha...and becuase i was wearing retainers, i wasnt that clear and had to repeat everythng a few times..gosh after a long time, my mum finally learnt and succeeded in sending me the file...haha...and all the while, my grp members were having a laugh at my expense..haha..but i still love u grp! haha....

and my mum was glad she learnt sumthing..:)..so i guess i am a good teacher..haha

and i saw sumone today..haha.and all the old feelings came back

do u know how much it sucks when u cant really control ur feelings?! thats how i feel now..my brain tells me my feelings are illogical but i cant stop my heart...

haha..and u know u are gonna get hurt, but even then my heart dusnt want to give in..haha...and so my frens, thats how i end up gushing..

really sorry for my involuntary screams and other expressions that may seem a nuisance to your ears..but u guys obviously do not know how i feel...i am at a stage where i am still struggling to identify and classify how i feel...

so, i hope at least in the near future, that i spare others from my gushings..haha

until then, pls bear with me ok..haha..pls...*sighs*..i want a new heart..hahah

haha..feel a lot better after talking to my besties:) thanks guys...

so its not just me, many jc students are going thru this lonely syndrome..gosh..

and wen i was talking to vaishh, she said that the feeling sucks...haha...exactly wat i said..

thats why we are best frens!:)

yups, i def miss the times in cedar, esp beingg absolutely careless abt appearance..cant really afford that in jc..haha

so anyways to all my frens out there who feel lonely, just wanna let u know that i am a call away..haha..and the one fren that u can ALWAYS rely on is Jesus!

so anyways, ii felt like conjuring up this wish list..here goes:-

1) new pair of spectacles
2) contact lenses
3) new heels..haha..can never get enough of shoes
4) new sports shoes for sch: all star?
5) new school bag!
6) a tote bag that isnt auntie or childish
7) a sports watch
8) a new and trendier haircut!
9) a nice time with all my besties
10) a nice holiday with my family:))

haha...thats why its called a 'wish-list'...coz i might never get it...its ok..

hmmm....i feel lonely...

i dunno where my frens are and if they care anymore..feelings do change....

gosh! that lonely feeling sucks la..hhaha...

today got pissed in sch coz i felt i was ignored..sorry guys, but i really felt that way and i am not a person who can hide her feelings..and its SO emabarssing wen u say sumthing, but u dun get heard, u just get ignored...and other pple prob think u are talking to urself..G-R-E-A-T!


anyways, today went to collect my ghagra or watever that was supposed to turn out that way..hhaha...it turned out not bad..i mean i didnt look as huge as I usually would..haha..

yup, so me and amma walked thru serangoon rd and saw LOTS of pple shopping! haha...and i saw lots of CUTE BABIES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

hahaha...and i was like telling my mum that this baby was cute and that baby was cute and she was like which baby is not cute for u la..haha...:)

i love babies!!!!!esp ones with BIG ADORABLE eyes:)

hehe..and I do have a thing for big eyes..haha...errr..not just subjected to babies ah..hehe..can be for other pple also..heheheh

yep..so doing pw now..looks like my life has been confined to pw of late...

AMMA'S BDAY IS TMRW! haha...yup my wonderful amma...luv u ma! and i will always appreciate the numerous sacrifices u have made!:)

and i just really hope things take a more cheerful turn for my personal life..my current prayer is to ask God for the ability to enjoy life no matter how miserable...

contradictory, but its possible..after all Jesus never moaned over the fact that he was gonna be crucified..he kept on living life..

:)

my motivation is that glorious face i will see in heaven:)