Yvonne

I really need a job..

coz i feel completely unproductive staying at home and wasting my time away and eating but not burning the energy..haha

somehow or rather all my other friends have gotten a job..yep..so that adds to my guilt.

But I did try and its partly because I have constraints. I can only work for 1 month because of the STEP program in church that starts on the 23rd Feb.
That explains why I can't commit to most jobs.
+ I have no experience
+ I dont know Chinese

and I have been searching jobsites randomly applying for jobs although I know my measly 'resume' will not survive..But one can hope rite..ahah..at least I am trying

Anyways, besides all the job searching I managed to meet my bestIe Vaishnavi yesterday!

hAHA..and oh my, shes such a splitting image of her mother and she looks really pretty. I looked like a seriously overgrown kid next to her..ahah..GROSSLY OVERGROWN..
we talked about alot of stuff and always abt the fact that our mothers are SO SIMILAR and get angry at the next stuff..
and she was telling of how she planned not to get married or get married and not have children..LOL..I am more of a typical and wld rather opt for the family life...she said she wld want my children to call her '' aunty vaishnavi''...haha
BUT SHE HAS TO EAT HER WORDS ONE DAY WHEN SHE MEETS THE RIGHT ONE AND NOTHING ELSE MATTERS..muahahah..

I never really thought so far but she has plans of retirement and travelling and living on an island. Even my cousin in Malaysia has plans abt retirement..

WHAT ABT ME?
lol..nothing..i dont even know what I want to do in university..and I am scared to make plans because I dont know what HIS plan is for me..what if it doesn't coincide? Then its gonna be an uphill task for me to let go of it..But there are some things that I want to do...some in the near future and some further aaway in time:-

1)Learn to play the piano..ya, i am that pathethic..I havent learn music..the only thing I know is the names of the black and white keys..haha

2)I want to act on stage..ahah.I have acted in school stuff but I think drama is a thing you can never get enough of. I have horrible stage fright but its a great adrenaline rush when I know that all eyes are on me..and its so cool because you get to be SOMEONE ELSE! no longer my boring self..ahah

3) I want to cut my own record or a single or sing somewhere( not that I am that great a singer)..haha...this is seriously far far far away frm reach but I wld like to find my own style in singing..haha.some pple sing airily and gently, some sing strong and sopranoish.I dont know how I wld sound in a CD..LOL..I doubt this will ever happen though..

4) I want to work with the poor and needy..in Africa, Indonesia, India-anywhere where they need people...Educate the young, provide medical service..I don't really know but I want to do whatever I can..

5) Besides acting, I also want to stage a play..haha..write my own script and create my own costumes..decide lighting and all the other stage stuff..ahah..this is prob gonna be highly impossible too..

6)I want to bring my family on a European tour at my expense-me, my mum and dad, and my bro and family if he is married by that time( I can't wait to have my own nieces and nephews!!!!:P)

7)I want to design clothes! I can't sew but I like to visualize clothes in my head and draw them out.

8) I want to go in a hot air balloon..Though I am really scared of heights, I think it wld be kinda fun..and the balloon better be colourful..

9) I want to finish reading the whole bible! haha..this is highly achievable within this year but I have to perrsevere.

10) Oh. Everyone has heard me say this at least a million times and I have never succeeded! LOL...coz i suck at consistency. DUH! I WANT TO LOSE WEIGHT! lol..like alot and look like a total different person!

ya..so 10 things that I want to do.I probably embarassed myself with this post..don't laugh at me k..everyone has their childish whims:)

these are things that I want to do but there are so much more that I want to be..its different..there are some characteristics that I dont like in mysel and my personality has to change so that what I do would be fruitful..and that is gonna take a whole mountain of effort..so that wld be my foremost priority because I believe that a person's personality and mindset influences everything he or she does..